["the lord doesn't call us to be sucessful, he calls us to be faithful."]

A priest's sermon really got to me a few days ago. Instead of the typical catholic ceremonies, my family and I stayed-in on Good Friday to watch the Passion of the Christ.

And no this isn't a preachy entry. just an internal revelation.

Bare with me..

I realized that Jesus Christ was a man.

Laugh all you want but for my 10 some odd years in the New Jersey Catholic School system my mind was clouded by glorifications. Lavish stories of a man who became a model for the biggest religion in the western world. This man's life built nations. This man's life engulfed wars.

And all of this was meant to happen. It was foretold by prophecies and visions. A past with actions leading up to that very moment.

Throughout the course of the film my brother and I wound up quoting another Jim Caviezel classic (arguably) ... Frequency. and like JC's (both Jim Cavaziel and our good Lord) passion, the story connects a son to his father. Connecting two people through their past for a better future.

Which leads me to this blog entry.

I have issues.

Now I know we all have our skeletons, inner demons, or what have you. But I got issues. Issues developed from past experiences. A combination of actions and events leading up to this point. Making me who I am today.

I realized life isn't just about the success stories. It isn't about this college degree I'm striving for. Achievements in my own ethnic community. My passion for music.

It's all about being faithful. Not just spiritually or just in the relationship sense. It's trusting that despite these times that we're in, whatever life deals for us, that everything is going to be just fine. Trusting that no matter what you gain or lose, everything happens for a purpose.

Cause you see, you can't spell trust without us.

You and me. Me and myself. It's a two way street.

And despite my issues...

I realize that I have nothing to worry about at all.
-Matt